Prior to this study, I was very broken. I was badly hurt. I went through a traumatic experience 3 years prior. My heart needed healing badly. Going through this study helped me realize that I had harbored so much bitterness and unforgiveness towards the people that hurt me. All I could focus on was how badly I was hurt. I allowed negative thoughts to control me and I would slander those that hurt me. I focused on me and my pain. This study has helped me realize that it’s not about me. It’s about what Jesus did on the cross for me. It’s about Him. He understands exactly what I went through and I don’t have to carry my burdens alone. Going through scripture in this study, I realized that the anger and unforgiveness that I allowed in my heart was sin in my life and it controlled me. Ephesians 4:26-27 says, ’’Be angry and yet do not sin. Do not let the sun go down on your anger, and do not give the devil an opportunity.’’ I had every right to be angry, however, I let the sun go down on my anger and I didn’t turn to the Lord for my strength. I am so thankful for the Lord’s grace and forgiveness. I am so thankful for this study that pointed me to the Lord, and seeking Him and His Word. I know the road isn’t going to be easy ahead, but I have the tools I need now, in the Word of God, to take my thoughts captive and to pray for those that hurt me. We all need Jesus. He’s the answer. I am so grateful to be a child of God.
