When I started the Hem of His garment study, I was angry and hurting and broken. I was angry at the people who had hurt me, and desperate for an answer and a fix to my pain. I had tried filling those pains and spaces with men, with meds, and with worldly advice galore. I didn’t sleep much and I didn’t have any peace. I chose to do this Bible study because I truly felt I was out of other options and because I knew in my heart that true healing for me was only going to be found in God, the One who made me. Week by week I saw the changes. Actually sharing my story with my counselor and truly opening up the painful parts I didn’t want to was just the beginning of an incredible journey. From there the Lord took my bitterness and called me to forgive. He showed me the truth of who He is and how He loved me so incredibly much. There were days I wanted to quit because sometimes it ripped the wounds I had open, but those days were the ones I heard His love for me the loudest. Soon I had to admit my mistakes and realize how badly I had messed up and looked in the wrong places for peace, but then the study helped me find repentance and His incredible forgiveness. From then it was an amazing journey of realizing how He wants me to live for Him, in my marriage, in my work, in everything I do. Ultimately, through this study He cleansed my dark places and filled them with His truth and light and grace and love that still draw me to tears in awe and wonder and gratitude. I feel like that person who started this study is not the same woman today, because God has transformed my life and I just want to go share that hope and truth with everyone I come in contact with! His amazing grace and love have changed my life and this study was the conduit He used to do it, from the material, my counselor, and everything else! Praise Jesus for changing me and drawing me to Him!
