I wanted to be in the Word all summer. I was at church with my small group and one of my dear friends had just finished the other study you have related to abortion. She was speechless about it, but I could see she was so moved. She encouraged me to do this one. That night I came home and signed up. Because of some technical issues it took some days to get going. (Your tech guy was very kind and helpful.) When I started reading, I couldn’t stop. I was drawn in by the honesty and rawness of the author. This study has healed me in some very powerful ways in some areas that have been deep wounds for me. First I connected with my body image issues my entire life had been linked to my early molestation. I gave that to the Lord and asked Him to help me love myself the way He does so I would stop doing harmful things to my body. This has been a work in progress but this study connected it for me and showed me the truth. Another area it helped me in was to see that I have to look deeper into areas of forgiveness, not just gloat in the wins of forgiveness with the big offenders of my life, but really look deeper into those fringe people I was holding ill will towards. That has been very helpful and I continue to feel free. When anger stirs, I take it to the Lord instead of hold on to it. The truth that there is no such thing or need for self forgiveness was another victory for me. It was just so clear to me the way the study teaches it. It has been something I have needed to leave behind and I am so grateful to be free of that thinking. The area that has been the most impactful has been in the area of intimacy. It has been on the forefront of my heart this summer. I think I am brave and ready to possibly enter the idea of dating. I still feel like a child with training wheels on but I believe this is for God’s purpose. I trust that He will protect me and He loves me. I pray He is preparing a God fearing man for me as I deeply desire to be a wife again and love someone without the walls, to have a Christ centered relationship. But I know this is in God’s hands and His time. But oh so grateful for His precision in healing. Intrigued by His brilliance and faithfulness to me. His timing of placing this study in my life at this time to allow me to marinate in His love is so sovereign. I trust God. He has shown me His love over and over again. I have shared this study with some of my friends and I will continue to encourage them to complete it as it is life giving and breathing because of the God we serve! I am so grateful for the opportunity to complete it!
