When I started this study I was full of fear. Fear of the future and the unknown and not willing or able to trust God in it. Honestly, many of the circumstances have not changed, but I'm allowing myself to let go of the outcome. I realize that I have a tendency to hold on to what I call "The scraps that are left of my life." When doing that, I've realized I'm not purging, letting God have the opportunity to do what He needs to or bless me. I have a regular counselor and even she says I'm staying very calm in my trials and she didn't expect that. I'm learning to press in to God. I also have to say that I learned a lot about the crucifixion. I didn't realize it was so brutal. I was raised Catholic and knew "it" happened, but not what He truly endured for all of us. He truly is our "Daddy" and His love for us is huge.
