pride and victim role kept her feet stuck

God has used this entire Bible study to reach the areas deep within me that needed to be cleansed by Him. I had asked God to use me more, just a few years ago. He clearly answered that He couldn’t until our work was done.

I had no idea what my Heavenly Father had in store for me. It was a journey that God Himself took with me, step by step, gently, day by day. I was very damaged, and traumatized by the events that I had experienced growing up. I had buried my capacity to feel human emotions so deeply, that I didn’t have self awareness concerning how my choices, sins, or actions impacted others, much less grieved the heart of my Creator.

I acted like a victim. It was about “the terrible things“ that happened to me. God showed me that my deepest sin, and greatest pain was laying beneath the sin of pride.

I blamed my mother for my abortion. God set me free, when He called to me, asking me to be accountable for becoming pregnant, when I had chosen to sin outside of marriage. That was never God’s design for any of His daughters. He loves us so much, that in His Word, He gives us instructions in order to protect us from the harm and consequences of sin! It’s all there out of love.

As I stood naked before my Creator, realizing what I had done, setting the dominos falling, I accepted the truth. I had sinned. My Holy Father fully forgave me, after showing me what I had done. I had NO idea that my sin of pride, and victim role, kept my feet stuck. It was as though my feet were in cement. I couldn’t move forward, and didn’t even know why.

How great God is to have rescued me from my own foolishness, ignorance, and sin. To God be ALL the glory, for I deserve none!