I am writing this today with a heart that is filled with gratitude to Healing Hearts Ministries and my awesome counselor, Laurie, for her patience and understanding as she gently walked me through both Binding Up the Brokenhearted and The Hem of His Garment studies. When I look at my life today and my life just a few short months ago, I see a different person; a person I find hard to recognize; a person filled with hope and a new hunger and thirst for God’s Word.
Back in the mid-1960’s, I was living a life far from God; looking in all the wrong places for the love and acceptance I didn’t find at home. Instead of trusting in God and taking my sinful thoughts and attitudes captive, I chose to rely on the enemy and the results were disastrous. Those sinful thoughts at attitudes, when allowed to fester and grow, sprouted like weeds and were not only affecting me, but everyone I came in contact with.
Today, I am kneeling at the foot of the cross, humbly and gratefully, thanking God for setting me free from that ugly past; a past filled with addiction, sexual impurity, abortion, anger, bitterness, resentment, pride, selfishness, jealousy, control issues, unbelief and rebellion. With God’s help, my relationships have been restored and I have forgiven both my ex-husbands for verbally, emotionally, physically and sexually abusing me. I am especially thankful, that with God’s help, I was able to forgive my 97 year old mom before she passed this last April. I know she’s in heaven with God, my dad and my babies. I’m a little jealous. She gets to meet them before I do.
