Recently I took a step of courage and visited our local CPC with hopes to volunteer. I didn’t know if they would want someone who’d had an abortion but just wanted to serve women who’d been where I’d been with an unplanned pregnancy and be a part of helping them choose life instead. This study is advertised in that center and God showed me that if I really wanted to be all that He wanted me to be through Mend, that I needed to walk through a healing process of my own. I expected to hear what I had already heard ’’God has forgiven you so now forgive yourself and move forward’’. What I actually learned is that yes, God has forgiven me but the process to healing has to do with acknowledging the darkness of my sin which finally allowed me to recognize the precious life I will meet in Heaven and grieve that loss. Healing involved confessing my sin to another (my wonderful counselor, Karen!) and seeking God’s Word with another to see what He says. Also, this study showed me that although we are called to forgive as Christ has forgiven us, we don’t ’’forgive ourselves’’ yet we choose to humble ourselves and accept forgiveness. I am so thankful for Karen and her guidance through this study. She is wise, caring, humble and such an example of Christ! Thank you Karen!
