I have have given bits and pieces of my testimony as I have gone through this bible study. I was raised in a catholic home with 2 sisters. I always felt there had to be more about God than the God I was taught about. I got pregnant at 17 and married had a sweet baby girl and began what I thought would be a wonderful life with my knight in shinning armor. I soon found out that was not to be. I was in a mentally and sexually abusive marriage for 10 horrible years. I was pressured to have an abortion, my husband did not want a child at that time. My abortion was the final thing that brought me to my knees in despair and hopelessness, but thank God it also brought me to Him in 1973. I found myself divorced with three children. It was difficult, but God in His mercy was with me. I was still a sinner making mistakes but my heart desired to know His word and live for Him and have my children know Him too. I stuffed down my abortion at times pretending it never happened and at other times thanking the Lord for His forgiveness. I went in and out of that thinking most of my Christian life. I never felt I was good enough. God, in His mercy, has been putting people and situations in my life to bring me to a place of finally dealing with my abortion. It has been a hard journey, one that I am thankful He pressed in and didn't let me run away anymore. I have volunteered at 3 Pregnancy Centers. I am currently volunteering. It is a blessing to serve there and be part of God's work in helping those who are hurting. My personality is not one of a leader, at least not as far as I am concerned. I have felt very drawn to post-abortive women, yet never felt I could really be a leader. I now feel at peace with Healing Hearts and their support system.
