At 19 I was date raped and I got pregnant. I didn't tell anyone until I was 7 months along. I chose abortion. Mom went with me to the clinic. It was eye-opening. A 14 yr old girl on my left was being encouraged by her two sisters and her mother, who all had abortions. To our right were two older women. One of them asked why I was so upset. She said she has had 7 abortions and she is fine. I was upset because the doctor told me I was too far along. I was going to have a saline injection. My mom gave me her medical journal and I highlighted the word, "Usually" in this phrase, "The baby USUALLY is stillborn". I prayed on it all night long, by morning the baby was kicking me and I was crying. I knew it was going to be ok to have my baby.
Then I met my husband. It was a rocky time. I got pregnant while we were broke up. We communicated that I would abort the baby with nods and shakes of the head. He didn't go with me. I pushed the memory deep into my soul. It all surfaced years later. We ended up separated, and we had to deal with it then. We were apart for two years. By the grace of God we reconciled. We now have a Christ centered marriage and I know I am forgiven. I believe I have a story to share because I have lived on both sides of the abortion issue. I was a teen, I was raped, I prayed to God for His help and I had my baby. She is now a beautiful servant of God, and one of the best things that happened to me. Later, I was in my early 20's. I had a job. Life was good. I didn't pray to God because I didn't want to have this baby, and be a mother of two children, by different fathers. I aborted my baby. I turned my face from God so that I didn't have to feel shame. It affected my entire life going forward.
