It is hard to believe this particular journey is over. It's like a great book--one sees the final pages coming but secretly hopes it will not end. There is a great song by William McDowell called "I Won't Go Back". Some of the words: "I've been changed, healed, freed, delivered - I've found joy, peace, grace and favor. All my shame guilt, sin, forgiven...I've been changed." I know that I know I am not the same woman who started this Healing Hearts study seven months ago. The study has been a very powerful stream in a season of healing and growth God has called me into. It has come at a time when the Lord is moving me in new levels of spiritual warfare and my spiritual "foundation" had to be firm so the enemy could not attack me there. Wherever we have cracks, breaks, unhealed feelings, areas of unforgiveness, we give the enemy an avenue to wreak havoc in our life. This study brought Words of Life in key areas of denial, hurt and unforgiveness. It was not so much that the words were "new" to me, many were scriptures I had heard, read, before. It was how the study built on these truths to specifically deal with post- abortion trauma that was powerful. The recognition of sin (no more hiding, no more secret shame) and the acceptance of the forgiveness of the Father thru the sacrifical life of His Son, Jesus was the major breakthrough for me. Equipping me with scriptures to expose the lies of Satan and put me back in my rightful place of authority in heavenly realms. The renewing of my mind - the real battlefield and the heart - so fragile to damage. This study was enhanced ten-fold by my amazing counselor N, who had the perfect word in season, was led of the Spirit and was not afraid to lose me through a strong word of warning and was ALWAYS there. Her input made a potentially lonely and fearful journey, a path I could walk with another sister quietly guiding me thru the dark places until the SON rose over the mountain. For her service, for the woman God called to start this study and my faithful Savior, I am forever grateful.
