Living like

I was at a women’s retreat listening to the speaker share of her work in a Crisis Pregnancy center, when she began to tell the story of a client she was involved with, who had had multiple abortions. At that moment my ears were as if they had been stuffed with cotton. I sensed the Lord speaking directly to my heart, and what He said was this “What the enemy has used to hold you down with for so many years, I will set you free from, and use to My glory”. I did not know what it meant, but what I did know was that the Lord was beginning a new work in my life.

I came across a church bulletin of my friend's and saw an announcement for a Healing Hearts Post Abortion Bible Study beginning soon in her area. I called the number and was referred to a woman in my city. With fear and trembling I made the call and began to share the shame over the choices I had made in my life. How relieved I was to find that the woman I was talking to, had also made this decision, and reassured me with her understanding words, that she knew just what I was going through.

As I went through this Bible Study, I began to see with God’s eyes, that I was a sinner without excuse. As I looked at His commandments, I saw that I had broken every one of them. Even if I had not participated in Abortion, I had fallen short of God’s standard, and I was separated from God. I had no way to earn my way into His kingdom. As I came face to face with my sin, the Lord revealed His perfect sacrifice, through the blood of His Son Jesus.

For years I had tried to live life like a Christian, without ever placing my trust in the finished work of Christ alone. When I was able to transfer my trust from my work to His perfect provision, changes began to take place. No longer do I live in fear of my failures, but rather thankfulness for the forgiveness I have received for those failures. I am grateful to the ministry of Healing Hearts, to bring healing into my life that was not at all what I expected it would be. I am thankful for the message of the gospel that saturates this study, reaching into the heart of each woman like me, weighted down with the bondage of past sins, and setting us free by the power of God’s love and forgiveness.