Thank you husband

As a married woman in my early 20’s I became pregnant not once, but twice. Each time I thought I wasn’t ready to become a mother. There were major problems in my marriage and I thought a child would only make things worse. In each case, I chose to abort the baby inside of me, thinking it only as a fetus, tissue-certainly not a baby.

My life went on, my marriage got back on track and years later I became wracked with pain, guilt and shame over what I had done. I was blessed with a child of my own and had come to know the Lord through my son. As we planned for a second child, I was met only with heartbreak after experiencing difficulty conceiving and having a miscarriage. I felt God was punishing me for the abortions I had had. I felt He could never forgive a sin such as that. After 4 years of trying to conceive, my husband and I turned to adoption.

Adoption proved to be a roller coaster of a ride for us. Birth mothers would “choose us” only to change their mind later. Either they decided to keep their baby or go with another adoptive couple. After the last such incident I was inconsolable. My husband encouraged me to attend the Healing Hearts Bible Study, going so far as to get me the name and number of the person I needed to call. I made the call and soon after made the commitment to attend the 10 week study.. What a change it has made in my life. It made me address my abortions and all the related issues head on. Sometimes it was painful, but it was always enlightening. God’s word seemed to jump out at me. His grace and mercy poured over me until I could no longer deny the truth: He has forgiven me. What a wonderful feeling to know that God loves me in spite of my sins. My sins have been washed away by the blood of His Son, Jesus Christ. This study brought that point out load and clear. The healing has begun. I am starting a closer walk with God and with my husband. Has this study changed my life? Absolutely!