Small changes make big impacts

I had my abortion 29 years ago, and it was the worst mistake of my life. I thought I could not go on living, knowing that I had killed my own child. The Lord spared me from suicide and alcohol and other destructive behaviors.

Two years later, I gave my heart to Jesus when I accepted the price He paid for my sins on the cross, and accepted Him as my Lord and Savior. He did a great work in my heart, healing me of my abortion and other sins and hurts in my life, through His Word.

When I started the study, I felt that I had been healed so completely, and didn't know what to expect of the study. But I know that God works exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, and He did!

The biggest change for me was becoming aware of anger and unforgiveness that I was holding onto, regarding certain men in my past, and a specific denomination they had all come from. This was a real surprise to me, as I had thought I had forgiven them years ago, and did not realize how much this was still affecting my relationships today, as I have frequent contact with people from this denomination. I forgave, each one of them, and have been freed up from the burden of unforgiveness that I didn't even know I had been carrying around for years!

As a result of this study, God has given me a real sense of hope for my future with my husband. There is more love in my heart for him, a tenderness to each other, and a quickness to forgive. It has been an awesome experience to have worked through this study with my online counselor working so closely with me on these intimate issues.

I am realizing that I have never had this much accountability built in to my walk with the Lord before, and have received a great blessing from the Lord through her. I have had more opportunities to share about my faith and the healing the Lord has done in my life. I think this is mainly because I am walking closer to the Lord as a result of the work the Lord required me to do in the area of forgiveness.

I have a joy and a confidence that the Lord is leading me and directing me in my daily walk. I highly recommend the Binding Up The Brokenhearted study for anyone who has had an abortion, even those who have previously received the Lord's forgiveness and healing for their abortion experience. He is always ready and willing to do so much more for us!