My priest told me I was forgiven, but I couldn't accept it

About a week before finding healinghearts ministries, I was praying and suddenly got this insight about my abortion. I was being shown that it was my own decision entirely and not the fault of other people around me. I was being led to acknowledge my responsibility. But this was done with such incredible gentleness and love that I knew it was God.

The following week I was watching EWTN and on came an advert for Silent No More. I felt that God had meant me to see that advert and I came straight online and looked them up. I got to reading their lists of counselors. I found a link to healinghearts.org. That very same day I looked up Healing Hearts and signed up for the ten week course.

I can honestly say that I have never felt so much pain and grief in my entire life as I did during the first two chapters of this study. This is because I had buried everything I thought and felt about my abortion for eleven years. It went against everything I believed even when I did it, but I still did it, because I thought I had no choice.

In this study, I had to finally face what I had done and for a time I could not get the thought of it out of my head. I couldn’t sleep, I was tired and weepy all the time. I had been told I was forgiven by God by a priest, and I knew Christ, but I could not accept that forgiveness. I could not feel it. I could not comprehend it. I did not feel worthy of it.

Now you have helped me. Now I am starting to feel that I have been, can be, forgiven by God. I am striving to accept that forgiveness because Christ died for this. Who am I to reject the sacrifice of Christ? Without Healing Hearts I might never have moved on towards feeling this. I would like to thank you so much. You are helping me to heal finally after all these years. You are helping me to be set free, you are giving sight to the blind. Thank you.