Wanna ruin a family gathering? Start a discussion about abortion. This, I am sure, is true for many families, not just mine. Let me explain. I have been silent for 30 years about my abortions. Thirty. Yes. Plural. More than one. My father works with many many religious groups protesting abortions. My mother goes on and on about how awful those people are that have abortions. ’’How could they’’ she screeches. While I silently listen. I start believing their rhetoric. Doubting my identity in Christ. Doubting my salvation. I know I am not alone. I have three other close friends that also had abortions. You reading this. I am NOT alone. It hurts to hear these things said about them. It hurts to think. Their sin. MY SIN. Is the worst sin EVER. It cuts me deep in my soul to think. I am. Unforgiven. Forsaken. It pains me that YOU are reading this. You may feel alone. I am not alone. YOU are not alone. Jesus Christ my savior. When others have forsaken me. Jesus Christ my friend. Who, when facing the cross, thought of ME. THAT Jesus has forgiven me. It was not easy. I had to take a good long look in the mirror. I had to admit, not rationalize, my sins. All of them, including the abortion. I had to look at Jesus and ask please forgive me. I have to daily ask the Holy Spirit (the smallest but certainly not any less powerful piece of God) to give me strength and He does. I am NOT alone. Neither are you. WE have a really scary, nasty enemy who wants you, me to believe we are alone. But you are not. I am not. You have many, many sisters right here. Alongside you. They, I, have walked the walk you walk. Most importantly the giver and creator of YOUR, MY life, is right here along side us each and every day. He offers forgiveness when family, friends will not. Cling to Him. Allow Him to heal these wounds. Please pray for me as I pray for you. Thank you for this study.
