Going through the Healing Hearts Study has been so releasing for me in my soul. It has helped me to grieve over my children I aborted. I am no longer fearful of even hearing the word abortion. It has given me confidence in knowing that even though I took the lives of the two children God chose to form in me, he forgives me and they are waiting for me in heaven. I had such pain in going through this and even worse pain at seeing God's word and how it applied to my decision both good and bad. I didn't want to face any of this. I thought as the world tells us...it's ok, you're fine, move on but it is a lie! I was not fine at all. But now I can give my aborted children honor by being a better mom now to the adopted children God has given me. I actually feel like I am their mom now. I know that God loves me and trusts me with their care. Before this study I didn't understand why God would give me them because of my abortions and all the other sin that came from that decision but I did appreciate him. (How silly that sounds now) Thank God, I have a better sense of family and being their mother. My anger and frustration is slowly ceasing to be. I recognize where it came from and it's getting better all the time. I thank God for this study and bringing it to me for such a time as this and thank God for all those involved in this ministry. I am free.
