I used to feel empty, destroyed, hopeless and that God could never take someone like me back. I felt that I had really messed up this time around since I was raised Christian with Christian virtues and that it was better for one not to know about my abortion. Knowing that this thing was wrong, I still went ahead with the abortion anyway. I felt so terribly ashamed and my heart was broken that I had made this choice to my child, the flesh of my flesh and the bone of my bone. I looked up to heaven but darkness was all around me and I wished I had died that day, but today God has showed me forgiveness like he gave Peter. Because like Peter I wept and cried, God took me from the mire clay and has set my feet upon HIS rock and I am so glad that through this study I have made peace with myself, my child and God. There is hope even in our hopelessness. Jesus can and will give us light at the end of that pit that we have dug for ourselves. Jesus is the only answer, amen!
