My husband, my baby, and I, are in Jesus

When I started this study, I was very stressed and nervous, because I was trying to get pregnant with my husband but it wasn't easy for over a year. I hadn't shared my past abortions with my husband before our marriage, so I feared how he would react when he got to know it, especially, if I could not have a baby.

At the same time, I could not manage the guilty feeling and fear of punishment about my sin, whenever I saw or heard about teen age pregnancy or abortion through the media, I was so embarrassed and frightened. I was trying to run away from the past, but the truth was, I was living in the past sins.

When I found the study, I immediately registered. I had just wished there was some way out of this pain, I couldn't manage the stress and fear any more.

When I first started the study, I was so afraid to go on because I feared if there was any condemnation or punishment that I was doomed in the study. I was just too afraid to face what I had done. But my counselor encouraged me and prayed for me continuously so that I didn't give up.

During the study, I learned about forgiveness that I've received and that I need to give to others who sinned against me as well. Relationships started to get recovered and the most surprisingly!.. I found I got pregnant!

The study replaced my fear with the freedom and courage. I shared my past abortions with my husband and we as a husband and a wife, have experienced becoming one in Christ Jesus.

Now when I look back, my life has been totally changed. I do not fear, I do not worry about my past, or my sins, any more. I learned God forgave me and blessed me so generously and faithfully. The truth set me free.

Now I confess I am not the same person any more, my family life is not the same any more, the relationship with my husband is not the same any more, we, including my baby in my womb are growing in Jesus together. I do not know how I can appreciate enough for the study and my counselor Tara who was so faithful and loving always. I want to continue the journey in Christ Jesus to become a pure priest.