Atonement adoption

For twenty-two years I have tried to carry the pain, sin and shame of my abortions all alone. A few years ago I came to the conclusion that if I adopted another woman’s children, that this would some how “atone” for what I had done. This is something that I knew I would be doing for false motives and I really didn’t want to but felt like I had to in order to make amends for my abortions.

Through this Bible Study I have come to know that there is no “righting” this wrong. I can't do something to earn my forgiveness and I can't forgive myself either. Only Christ can forgive me and He has, and I gratefully accept His mercy upon me.

A few weeks before this Bible study ended, we received a call in the middle of the night informing us that a baby available for adoption was about to be born. Within 48 hours our daughter was holding her new baby sister. I knew that Christ had completely healed me of my ulterior motives for wanting to adopt and brought this miracle to our family simply for us to love her and raise her in His ways.