A new sense of peace, real change

It has truly been a journey!!! I know this study has changed my life, my way of thinking and especially my HEART!!! First and foremost I am able to say that I have truly grasped the forgiveness of my sin from my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ! I understand that forgiving myself is not what God requires but he does require me to accept his forgiveness. Accept his death on the cross!

I truly had to grasp my abortion, there were so many feelings and pains that I buried over these four years. At one point I actually felt like Jesus would never forgive me, then I felt shame and guilt!

Beginning this study I had grown so much spiritually I thought I understood that God forgave me but in actuality I didn't. I felt ashamed of my abortion. I wanted it to be a secret for the rest of my life. But now I know that one day I will testify about my experience with my abortion! I used to look at the abortion like there wasn't a baby inside me. I knew it wasn't just a lump of tissue but I didn't look at my pregnancy like I lost a loved one and now I do look at my baby like she is in heaven! There's so much I can say about this study.

Every scripture gave me strength and understanding on the pain I caused Christ and the grace that God gives me!!! This bible study has completely CHANGED MY HEART!!!!!! I begin to think differently about how God forgives, on his grace and mercy.

I know that from this day forward my life will never be the same. I am on a more intimate level with Christ because of this study and the love and grace God has given me. In so many ways my life has been changed. I want to help others who are struggling with pregnancy because I don't want them to make the same mistake I did!

I love my husband more because of this study. He has supported me so much throughout it and the lesson also made me evaluate my marriage as well on the chapter where we discussed God's plan for sexual intimacy.

I look at my baby as a human being as a person I love so dearly that I betrayed but by God's grace and mercy I am forgiven and I truly believe we will be reunited in Heaven. Overall this study has truly given me a sense of peace with my abortion and has truly helped me love God more and more.