This study dug deep into my heart

My healing from my abortions started many years ago as I went through another abortion healing ministry. As I sat quiet with my story of my abortions for 40 years and then started my journey thru a retreat, I will say that the story of healing has been lifelong. Each part of it has healed me some: bible studies, reading God’s Word, talking to a few women about my journey and many prayers lifted up for me to our God has all been God’s story of my redemption thru Him.

God used this study and counseling to go so much deeper in my heart with the pain of sorrow and sins from before my abortions to the present time. And here is Gods timing: This study dug deep into my heart with a very current hurt and brought so much healing as to who I am in Christ and to believe it as it continues to grown in my heart. I loved being able to understand righteous and unrighteous anger in my life; not only in relation to my abortions, but to how I have let others control so much of my life. This has helped me stand solidly on God’s truth, stop blaming others and feeling like a victim to make good choices for myself in personal relationships of all kinds.

The other section that dug deeply into my heart was Gods design for sexual intimacy. As I was finally honest with myself about my sinful, sexual past, I truly saw the beauty of God’s design for sexual intimacy and understood it. Painful, but freeing. Healing not only for the abortions, but in all the lies and strongholds which have held a tight grip on me have now been opened to identification and continued healing. Healing that leaves me free to be who my Lord has created me to be in Him, fully surrendered to my Savior, King. Even though painful, God’s hand of digging out the old and being made knew in Him, no matter our age, is a beautiful process.

I would encourage others to take this step of growth in Christ to being set free from the hurts. Oh, that we can completely trust our God to know what, when and the completeness of the process if we only step out in faith.